Child birth and Motherhood are things no one really explains.Mostly you learn from experiences which are very different and unique to every mother and child.Before I got to understand my son, I really had a hard time from sleepless nights,getting used to being a mother to someone who is physically new to me.
As strange as it may sound,that was my experience. I was happy to have my son but I was not happy at the same time. Confusing right? Let me explain. The reason I was happy was because I finally met the little human who I fell in love with from the first day I knew him and I was longing for his presence in my life. Another thing why I was not happy was because I felt frustrated with the sleepless nights and the non stop crying of the baby. I was used to being just me and now I have someone depending on me.
No matter how ready I felt,it all backfired on me i had to learn from my very own experience. I tried to counter check the experiences of my sister,my mother and even my nanny but none was the same as mine because my son is different. Everyone is different.
This almost got me into depression cause whenever I shared my feelings with anyone, nobody really understood what I really felt. I took everything head on because the frustration I was getting made me almost hate my baby for no reason. The first three months of my motherhood journey almost made me insane.
Everyday is different from ever other day and thus getting to know my son really helped me push the unseen powers I had as a mother. What I feel is very different from what people tell me. Study your child and get to know him or her then you can have a better understanding on motherhood.
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